2021
I said : Jodohku sedang sekolah lagi, jadi belum ketemu sekarang
Turns out
2023
Ternyata aku mendapatkan rezeki sekolah lagi. Apakah ini cara-Nya untuk terus membuatku berkembang?
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2016
I said : It was wrong, I wanted to start from 0 again and fix the friendship with him.
Turns out
2017
Allah swt keep me away from him and show me something to realize
Turns out
2020
I knew we were something and I knew why He kept me away from him. Allah swt knows me best than me and He knows I couldn't grow better with him. At the same year, I knew someone older. Someone called friend but shared a lot of perspective, listening to my childish complaint, and always able to calm me down. Until then found out, our perspective and the way we want in marriage are totally different. Until I make dua for the best and we stop communicating until then he found the right one. Meanwhile I was still searching for the meaning in life and marriage.
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2022
In the confusion of what next I need to do in life, Allah swt invited me to umroh suddenly because none of my life plan it's there.
2023
Allah swt opened up the knowledge for me to consistently learning about my purpose in life. A full year of getting introduction and mind-blowing concept that changes almost more the 80% of the way I think.
2 months after umroh, I caught up in the really hard reality to face, unwanted, but I think it's time to make closure and testing what I've learn in responding situations.
In the middle of the year, He put me on magister candidate. It's hard to get through, but it's His Way to make me grow.
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2024
I got someone hate me. At the same time I got a chance to interview for new job opportunity. I said, I'd rather not getting the position if the leader was still him. Allah swt knows best and I got the position when he already moved. In the hectic schedule of going to Malay and Surabaya, I got the SK fortunately, at the month where I already made full schedule. It's tiring but deep inside I know it's the best.
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2025
I need to finish the study, InsyaAllah by His help I wanted to finish at March. I want to spend lebaran full day with may parents without opening my laptop. After conference and sidang are done, I think I'm ready to start looking for husband. I believe He already prepares the best, so I'm here waiting and fixing myself. I admire someone, but it's too far and I don't know if I will be match with him or not. Semoga aku tidak berputus asa dari rahmat Allah swt
Nikmat-Nya sangat banyak hingga aku speechless dengan segala rencana-Nya untukku....
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