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How I See Life For Now (OTW to 24)

Sometimes life is not about decisions. A lot of path we have are not constructed by the steps of decision making. Some of things are just meant to somebody. Meanwhile, we have to tolerate about other people. It's not about faking all day, but sometimes it is a must. We have to adjust to get the condition on the right way. 

The more I grow, the more I know that we're not supposed to be 100% real for everybody. We can't please everyone and people might not please us. Putting hopes or happiness on others is not a right choice. We can be 100% of ourselves to people who deserve it, to them who can accept and appreciate a small thing we do. 

Living in this world is just like being a character on a game. Make strategy to still alive, take some steps to survive, choose some environment and way of communication to have a family or friendship. We can assume it as a natural survival instinct. We don't choose the people, but naturally we can feel uncomfortable with some of them. We analyze people and take some assumption which can be wrong. Then we share our experience to others just to fine some validation or perspective. 

I can change people, but I can change my responses. I can change the way they see me, but I can change how I respond to it. I can fight towards them, but I can still heal my soul in many ways I should. I can have everything, but I can put my mind to how I'm supposed to be thankful of what I have.

Sometimes I want the perfect thing, but at the end I can accept everything that existed for me. Living life like this is always challenging. If someone asked me about what kind of life I want, I never be able to tell it in details because thinking about today and tomorrow is quite spending energy.

I just hope I can be wiser than I am yesterday. Putting perspectives on the angle it needs so that it fits to the society I am in. Listen more to understand and find the right position. Be thankful more than I do lately. And never stop trying to improve the way of thinking, analyzing, and responding. 

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